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The past couple of days have been good.  Had a little bit of anxiety yesterday morning, but it passed in time for me to make it to the class that was making me nervous anyhow and that turned out pretty well anyhow, and the stuff I was nervous about was silly.  Got some good advice about handling panic-attacks and that seems to be working.  I can't wait for all this to pass; usually, I get a few months where it's really bad and then I'm fine for a while.  The last time it was this bad was four years ago, and it had gotten so much better up until a year ago, when life seemed to catch up with me and my family and everything went to Hell.  It's gonna be fine.

I really like looking at fashion blogs, but they always leave me feeling... inadequate, I guess.  Women's fashion is so diverse and nice, while men's fashion is essentially all the same stuff, all the time.  Earth tone, khakis (gross), and formal wear.  None of it speaks to me.  Alternative men's fashions to me seem to be in imitation of women's fashion, and while I'd probably make a pretty woman, I'm not really feeling the severe V-neck thing.  I guess a really big part of my ire toward men's fashion is that I haven't really developed a voice of my own in that area and I'm really quite unhappy with the clothes that I have.  I guess I should just keep poking around and trying things out.

I also need to start writing again.  As well as writing, I need to continue my daily religious practice.  I have a feeling that lacking the daily practice has very negatively affected me psychologically.  Aside from that, I need to keep in mind that "I don't wanna," or "I don't feel good," probably aren't good excuses to not pay my dues to the Gods.